read up postings.
so much rantings on how friends have changed or how they've been neglected.how they feel their concerns are not reciprocated.

i hope i do not fall into any of the above categories.
many have the misconception that i do not bother about the people around me.
but fact is i REALLY DO.
i care alot of how my friends feel.i'll surprise them with lil presents.i'll tell them silly jokes.i like to bring a smile to their faces.and hear them coo "so sweeeet..."

my friends are on my mind more often than they know.
like i actually do think of them during random times in the day.
wondering how they are and all.
its just that i do not justify my thoughts with my actions.
u'll say, 'how the hell would i know if u dont show it?'
well, thats actually an issue i've been trying to work out.

having been with me for long, my buds know how i work in relationships.
i guess they've grown used to that.they understand...or so i hope.
this is where the fine line between my close and ordinary friends is drawn.

of course i still need the assurance.
and i'll also offer the assurance from time to time when i do a reality check.
like times when i read about my best friend's ramblings.
i'll be like, 'is that me she's talking about me?'
it gets me uptight and insecure.
thats when it dawned on me that maybe i haven really spoken to her in too long.
and its time i give her a buzz.

yes.thou my friends can be accomodating and all.
but i'm aware these things cannot be taken for granted.
so i make sure i get the act in control.

like how shai and i have managed to come to a compromise and work out our friendship to a higher level.
where both of us feel comfortable.
and i sure like it that way =)

now u get a clearer picture of the friend i am?
say u do.