touch of paminism

24.11.06

Feeling so jaded these days.
Been bogged down by many issues.
I feel emotionally drained.
But i'm good at hiding these emotions.
And i dont feel like i wanna talk to anyone about all these at all.
The escapism as usual.

A few days back i spoke to wan'er on some stuff.
She gave me a fresh perspective on the particular matter.
I actually felt good after the conversation.
Thought i'll heed her advice.
But after contemplating for some time.
I've decided that some things are maybe just not worth the effort huh?
Or perhaps not now.
Besides i've got more crucial stuff to deal with at hand.

Pending assignments tests and whatnots.
I'm like getting very stressed suddenly.
I know they're not gonna be accounted for at all!
I can jolly well not go for the tests or not hand in the essays.
Sit back relax and bask in the yuletide season.
BUT i think i take my school work quite seriously.
And i do take pride in my work.

I've been reflecting quite a bit lately.
And damn, i think i've wasted a gd 3 months.
Whizzing past school.
Not knowing what the OT lecturer is talking about ALL the time.
Yes, constantly in a state of false consciousness.
Thinking, "oh yea i came for lecture thus i actually know whats going on"
Which of course, in reality is the contrary.
My lecturer: "guys if any of you doesnt know what O,S,RC,F,I,etc stands for by now...you're DOOMED!"
Ok thanks. That was much needed.
His comments make me feel so crappy all the time.
And i'll wince and wallow in self-pity.
GRR.
This has become pretty much a routine every wed for the past 1 month or so.
And it gets worse every week as the amount of untouched notes starts piling up.
Grrrrrrrrr.VICIOUS cycle.

So instead of complaining further.
I think i should get something constructive done about it.
Thus heading for my notes.
Gonna hit all that O,S,RC,F,I!

sparkle in glamorous divine Friday, November 24, 2006

18.11.06

Recently, my 2 lil cousins introduced this new ice lolly to me!

Its chewy its 'malleable' and highly addictive!

Best part is it isnt creamy or milky...

So you don't feel the least bit sinful indulging in it!

It bends and flaps like your tongue! Dig that!

We're lovin' the HIP HOP JELLY!!!

sparkle in glamorous divine Saturday, November 18, 2006

12.11.06

Its already the 2nd week into nov.
So fast so furious.
I have like assignments due for all subjects.
But yet i'm not doing anything to it at all.
Still in the sea of procrastination.

The past week has been a blast.
Many late nights out in a row.
Cafe iguana.walas.zouk.boat quay with shaina and the girls.
Nothing short of fun.
But really tiring too.
All these late nights have taken a toil on me.
Thats why i've pretty much been hibernating at home this week.
Plus the weather these few days simply set me into sucha zonked out mode.

Also i've been keeping myself really busy with amore classes.
Kickboxing is shiok!
My instructor's damn full of zest and vigour.
Her swift boxing moves and her "ooohs" and "ahhs" just soso HOT!
My cousin and i love her lessons.
She's sucha an inspiration.
Jazz dancing is really enjoyable too.
I imagined myself to be the female lead of step up for a moment!
Think channing tatum! ooh.
On another note, i cant do pilates for nuts!
I've been trying hard but to no avail.dammit.
I cant sustain the poses and my tail bone always experience extreme pain!
Argh.
How to acquire that lilin's hot bod!

Channelling my energy and focus on these exercises is good stuff.
Puts my mind off some worthless thoughts at least.
Have been rather bothered by some pipsqueak of an issue lately.
Its so unnecessary i tell ya.
But i cant control my emotions! sigh.
So juvenile.

A handful of random friends have been dating me out for movies.
So I've gotten myself 5 movie dates the coming week.
This is good.
Another way to divert my attention from 'that episode'.
Great.
I like it that i'm packed with programmes!

Contemplating if i should go zoukout.
But the idea of paying to dance and squeeze with people on the beach is quite a turn off.
Marc says he'll drive a big lorry there with all our people.
Now thats funny! Ha.
Oh yah i'm going to the phantom of the opera!!!
Its finally here again after sooo long.
Boy am i thrilled!
"Sing my lady...SING!!!"

sparkle in glamorous divine Sunday, November 12, 2006