Back from a date with fav boy.
As usual.
It was bitch-cum-scandal.central.com.
And of course he had a great time suaning me and putting me down to rock bottom.
He digs that.

Yay!!
I finally found a close substitute to the friggin 30bucks evita satin thick hairband that i've been lusting over.
This one's suede but its thick too!
And...3 times cheaper.

Ben was saying how he thinks i shouldnt get married.
Cos of my super indecisive whiny insecure temperamental nature.
He illustrated his points by mimicking how he thinks i will deal with future impending situations. Eg. decision to say YES or not, or when i get into a fight with my partner or when a baby comes along.
Like how i'll go " should i? i think not. maybe yes? oh no! "
I thought, yeah how true.
Scary but yes.
Sighsighsigh.

And he analysed just what he thinks goes through my mind.
As much as i hate to admit.
He was spot on for most of them.
Damns.
The thought of knowing someone out there who can read me like a book plain sucks.
And i'm sure there are many others out there who can.
Fuck!
I'm oh what an escapist.

Mayeb its time i come to terms with it.
But then again.
Tell me whats so wrong?

Happiness is a choice not a chance.
Would u rather sulk day by day?
I reckon not.
So why not live a happy ditzy carefree life instead?
PLUS, i do not deliberately choose to be happy, it just happens.
No?

A friend called me out for lunch out of the blue.
I'm full of skepticism.
Dont know what to expect.
I hope things dont get awkward.
Strange but I'm wishing that things will get resolved.
We'll see.

Tomm will be a WILD night with my safari quartet!
MAMBO time!

The phone i've been waiting for is officially launched today!
Guess what?!?
Jo beat me to it.
Her daddy brought her shopping and she's collecting her phone tomm!!!
ARGH.
Even jeanette is getting it!
Those 2 lucky lucky brats...
But we agreed earlier on me getting this and her getting the other one ----->
Double ARGHs.


But its ok...
cos the shipment for my favourite color will only come much later.
so i'll WAIT!!
what a consolation huh.
prob by then i'll take fancy upon another model =)

And i think i've already seen one that caught my eye!!!
Its sooo oriental sooo GOLD sooo peony...i like!
absolutely droolworthy.

Just woke up.
its near noon.
i had like what?12 hours of sleep?
oooh these days i've been sleeping so much but still feeling rather zapped out.

I sense emptiness.
in some weird corner of my mind.
i cant explain why.
but when i saw my lil cousins and wai po and xiaojiu at my shop last night.
i almost teared.
for a while i felt very detached.
its been like almost 2 months since i last saw them and have a decent meal together.
and the 1st words they spoke was : "have you eaten? i'll get you dinner"

i've been having dinner at their place everyday for the past years.
because of my mom's working schedule.
it was also at my uncle's where i was taken care of during my recuperation days from depression.
they gave me loads of encouragement and support during those dark times.
i owe much of where i am now to them.
but now.
i feel so distant from them.
thou their place is just a few minutes walk away.
i've never felt like this before.
its indescribable.

Just hope things will be back to normal when jo starts working.
i long for the family warmth and love like before.
i feel so deprived of all of those.

xmas is just around the corner.
i dont want to feel like any other guest at our own xmas party.

my evil twin in school zao-ed ystd...!
and she never inform me before hand.
i felt so insecure without her.
i was lonely and bored stiff!
i became the quiet girl of the day...
i realise i can only create a riot with my other accomplice around.
i spoke < 10 sentences thru'out socio lecture.
incredible.
mingnannan must have saw the evolution!

ekiekieki was back today.
and yes!
it was back to the good ol lecture routine.
she likes my new look =)
now thats really crucial.
i wouldnt wanna appear to be an eye sore to my chewing gum.
thinks i look angmohish?!? Ha.

We got stirred by some private joke and laughed hysterically like always.
she hyperventilated and i got food down my windpipe!
oh my.
we needa practise some self control really.
i think we're behaving like the hyenas i saw in night safari!
she's gonna get her hair done tomm to get ON PAR with me!!
LOL.

Laughing is therapeutic..
Laughter's contagious.
that's the tagline of patch adams.
which reminds me of peiru & lynda.
2 of my bestest mates in cchs.
wonder how they've been.
i should plan a get together =)

Certified Shopaholics!!!
BIGgest zara bag i've got...

it was a major shopping spree for us all.
or maybe just jo!
i think she easily spent 200bucks today?
this is LIBERATION.
well i spent below 100.
ju less than 50.
but thats cos she's had her fair share for the past week.
the amount is simply.overwhelming.

non stop action from 12-7plus before we settled down for dinner.
wisma's food court rocks!!
i like bibimbak.
eating it reminds us of hanzhien.

we decided our feets could not carry us any further.
thus headed to city space to chill.
our poor soles hurt like nobody's business.
both of them wore super high wedges.
i wore pumps but they hurt as bad.
imagine that.
sososo sore.
we need scholl's party feet gel cushions!!!

the spectacular scenery at the bar kinda took our pains away momentarily.
for a while i kinda hoped that time would stay still at the split instance.
it felt so surreal.
must have been those comfy armchairs dim lightings and soothing music.
major photo whoring session at the bar.
and we absolutely love snowball.
gonna order 6 of that the next time we're down!!

oh yeah we were so totally engorssed in shopping we totally neglected the xams lightings in town.
so we've planned on another outing solely to breathe in the xams festive air!
i dig quality time spent with my 2 dearest girls =)))

i wanna sleep but i wanna beat jo's high score.
all of my cousins are super addicted to some cooking game.
UBER FUN.

The talking curling machine that does wonders!!!
Glimpse of my curly locks ...

Stage 1 ----------------> Stage 2 ---------------> Stage 3




The 'end products' with our fav stylist Sunnie!

"We're going to night safari..how about you you you?

...you can come too too too..we're going to night safari..."

The SIMEI trio!!!

All 3 of us kept Sunnie veryveryvery busy.
she was bustling among us like a busy bee.
we were all transformed under her magical touch!
She made us 3 happy customers =)

twas already 9pm! when we were done.
jo drove as fast as she could to mandai.
the entrance of NS looked like the tribal meetings of survivor!
we couldnt contain our excitement!!
felt like it was back to the pri sch excursion days.
it started to drizzle.
but we went ahead with the ride through the RAINforest anyhow.

the cranky meyling incessantly attempted to snap picutres of the beastly animals.
the guide hadda warn her in between introducing those animals.
so maluating!
jo and i were mortified.
the rhinos deers tapirs were so near!!!
they could have easily dashed towards us.
the cape giraffes are really tall.
and the deers' antlers are very pretty.
like pieces of crafted art.
too bad these nocturnal animals are sensitive to light.
no pictures thus.
but the 45min tram ride was thrilling nonetheless.

ben and meyling wanted to respond to their adventurous natures.
thus we had no choice but to follow them into the leopard trail, forest giants trail, fishing cat trail.albeit reluctant.
the routes were absolutely DARK with tall grasses and bushes at our sides.
and the thought that all those animals are not kept in any enclosures or sort.
i couldnt help but think some beast will jump out from the bushes.
it almost drove me crazy.
AHHHHH!

the mangrove walk with B-A-T-S was possibly the ultimatum.
those freaking bats and flying foxes were freaking everywhere!
they flew so low they almost landed on ben's head.
all of us cuddled and squatted down and screamed like nobody's business!
jo almost burst out in tears.
totally traumatising!!!

all in all the venture was FUN-tastic...
it was the perfect company for such an outing!
the light drizzle made the trip extra nice in a queer way...
we had ben & jerry's for supper!!
*bliss*

now i see why Night Safari has been the winner of spore tourism awards 'leisure attraction' for the few running years.

The DAY is here!
Day when jo and ben end their A's.
Day for our major makeover.
Day of our night safari venture.
Day of ben & jerry's!
Day of happiness and fun!
Day to manymanymany exciting events ahead...
Ooh lala...
I'm feeling as ecstatic...
I pretty much saw them thru the examinations...

Still cant make up my mind...
Curls? trim? color? highlight? everything?
I'll just go with my mood later...yippee yay!!!

Me:
do u think pam is a bitchy girl?

J a r u l f says:
pam...is an expressive girl

Me:
oh i am expressive?

Me:
but i think i should tone down a little

Me:
guys seem to shun me these days

J a r u l f says:
okay tone down...you have to practise what u preach........all da time

J a r u l f says:
u shall start from tomolo onwards



Me:
do u think guys dont like loud girls

J a r u l f says:
louds is definately fine...but mus know when not to being loud

J a r u l f says:
like for eg...not to laugh so violently in class........

J a r u l f says:
ermm know when to ask "personal" questions in the correct setting....but no in class....even if wan to ask...place it in a tactful way...so only the receipients knows what u r referring to



Me:
i'm gonna evolve

J a r u l f says:
hahaha.........

Me:
pam will be the NEW AGE QUIET GIRL

J a r u l f says:
haha thats not being wad u preach...tone down...doesnt mean a big change mah

J a r u l f says:
small change...is alred v.good

Me:
eh tomm chop seat for me k else i reserve one for you

Me:
must let u experience a new me

hari raya lunch at Rohai's was enjoyable.
its always nice to catch up with my good ol' mates from the mushroom college.

sharon liwen and i couldnt stop going for more food.
we kept changing and throwing away our plates so as to look like we're forever at our 1st rounds.
like that helped anyway.ha.

hanis will leave for aussie to fulfill his dream of becoming a porn director!
benji! someone shares the same vision.
rampant and lucrative biz huh.
anyhow all of them concluded that i make orgasmic sounds and noises?!?
so i could possibly make guest appearances in their films huh?
ahhh!

hey the local bloggers are creating sucha stir these days.
even wan'er who's a few thousand miles away is updated.
we were disussing about daphneT. dawnY. today too.
my girls are all avid readers of BBB.i like.
and i really dont think DT is any hot now that i see the transformation.
i prefer all things REAL.
hold your breath and check this out!
http://leethax.blogspot.com/2005/11/troll-has-come-out-of-her-cave.html

wan'er is thinking of specializing in cosmetic surgery.
u go girl!
it will be the BIGGIE.
cant wait for her to be back!!!

grrreat.
my mates are gonna be future dentist lawyer film directors! journalist doctor teacher economist banker.
makes we ponder where i'm gonna be headed for.
hmm...

for now..i have a date with the vampires!

I'm suffering from a serious yet ridiculous bout of hangover.
been downing gallons of 'liang teh', sucking on packets after packets of lozenges and indulging in incessant sleep.
soup and porridge has been my staple for the past week.
but my throat still hurts like fcuk.
and my phlegm is still yellowish.
dammit.
i'm swearing off any drinks-OH!!!
not going anywhere near em' no more.


Just give me euphoria...

went for an aqua facial at Modern Beauty [the one kym ng, ada choi & co. endorses]
so heavenly.
cosy serene parlour.
i've always loved such treats =)

my beautician was giving me some grooming tips and all.
she suggested that i go for a double eyelid surgery since i have hidden ones.
then she told me about the various tcs stars who frequent the salon.
and whom updated her on the so and so who had boob jobs botox nose jobs and whatnots.
A** *O* had implants.
so did J*C*L*N *AY and E*IC*A L*E.
hoho.welcome to the REAL world.

anyhow i bought 2 facial vouchers as gifts for i think i know who.
plus signing up a package for myself.
dont ask me how much that all cost.
damns.
i see myself whirling into that vicious cycle yet again.

i like watching jewel in the palace aka 'Da Changjin'.
i wanna learn to cook those pretty food and wear those balloon dresses.
'love story in harvard' has hunky hunks and the ultra sweet babe too!
oh...i'm evolving into some korean-drama-mama!

Chat...anyone?

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shai popped by my work place ystd.
so sweet.i feel loved!
just when i was ranting abt 'gaps' between me and her...
she appeared...how PSYCHIC!
so my worries were unduly =)

after seeing her sexy curls.
i'm even more determined to get mine too!
then together we shall be curl-o-sisters!

she was so infatuated with this 'ruby pup' she saw at the pet safari.
it got me and jo excited too!
guess what.
after 11 this morning.
she's the proud owner of PUFFY.
i have to hand it to this girl man.
puffy is awfully adorable.
cant wait to meet him!
i want a pup too...

would anyone contribute to the 'buy-pam-a-pup' fund?

on a serious note.
no more partying.
no more alcohol.
no more drunken acts.
no more hangovers.
no more late nights.

for now.
i'm sticking to my vow of abstinence.

Halloween was a blast!
the queue was a freaking BLAST.
i learnt my lesson.
its either i go queue at 9 the next time there's an event like that.
or i'll forfeit.

witchy yee got in at 9plus.
apparently her cosplay wasnt EXTREME enough to get her in for free.
you should have seen those who disguised themselves.
it was like a chingay parade i tell ya.
if only i had snapped some shots.
there were big dragons. elves. fairies. butterflies. gorillas. china dolls. huanzhu gege. sultry cats. bunnies. koala. docs in scrubs. probe. nuns. nurses. convicts. policewomen. osama. bush. bloody casualties.mummies.
u name it they have it.
my horns were pale pale in comparison.
they kinda got in the way!
"hey horny girl!"
"your horns are poking at my face!"
plain hilarious.
pity i didnt get to put on the lawyer's robe py brought for me!

i queued and queued for ages in the never-seem-to-moving line.
thank gawd for this nice chap.
he allowed me to cut!
otherwise i guess could forget about partying.
but still i paid a whopping 28 bucks.
cos we could only get in from the velvet q.fuck.
and worse shit happened.
my card was declined.double fuck.
but this other girl i met at the q paid for me.
so it was my lucky night afterall?
andandand.just when i got in.
pei yee hadda leave.
i didnt get to see her at all.trip fucks.

i'm so not a velvet person.
phuture's still the best.
all of us hopped to phuture at 2 and grooved to my fav BEP.
they played MY HUMP!!!
i was HIGH...but my fav humping mates jo and benji werent there.

the night was a feast for my eyes.
many stars spotted.
and plus the spookies aplenty.
just that.
dancing wasnt fantastic.
and i didnt have much booze.
wednesday will be better =)

Happy Deepavali yall!