sweetie pie jiaen bought me a packet full of candies and chocolates.
i really liked it.
i'm going out with my 2 lovelies JB and sunshine on deepavali.
something to look forward to.

life's never been better.
like what i've been telling everyone around me.
ever since school started.
i've been as happy as a lark.

now, i have no clue and i cant differentiatie if it has been heartfelt happiness or was it mere pretence.
i think i feel strongly for the former.or so i hope.

but it started to dawn upon me that these few months have been overwhelming.
ALOT have happened.
good bad happy sad.
but i hid them all in my bottles.
my bottles of woes.
at this point of time.
i'm feeling spaced out.

things are starting to take a toil on me.
i'm tired of pacifying.
sick of all those nonsense thats causing the gloominess.
where do they come from?
somebody tell me.
many a times i just wanna scream GET A LIFE!
but thats almost impossible.
i simply cant bring myself to utter those words.
its too much to see my closed ones bleed in pain.

thus...
only the monitor sees my tears.
only my blanket recognises the tears.



those were the BEST times.

where only love warmth laughter smiles and tears of joy exist.

i miss my dollies to bits and pieces...

restore me to that state of euphoria.