Back from a date with fav boy.
As usual.
It was bitch-cum-scandal.central.com.
And of course he had a great time suaning me and putting me down to rock bottom.
He digs that.

Yay!!
I finally found a close substitute to the friggin 30bucks evita satin thick hairband that i've been lusting over.
This one's suede but its thick too!
And...3 times cheaper.

Ben was saying how he thinks i shouldnt get married.
Cos of my super indecisive whiny insecure temperamental nature.
He illustrated his points by mimicking how he thinks i will deal with future impending situations. Eg. decision to say YES or not, or when i get into a fight with my partner or when a baby comes along.
Like how i'll go " should i? i think not. maybe yes? oh no! "
I thought, yeah how true.
Scary but yes.
Sighsighsigh.

And he analysed just what he thinks goes through my mind.
As much as i hate to admit.
He was spot on for most of them.
Damns.
The thought of knowing someone out there who can read me like a book plain sucks.
And i'm sure there are many others out there who can.
Fuck!
I'm oh what an escapist.

Mayeb its time i come to terms with it.
But then again.
Tell me whats so wrong?

Happiness is a choice not a chance.
Would u rather sulk day by day?
I reckon not.
So why not live a happy ditzy carefree life instead?
PLUS, i do not deliberately choose to be happy, it just happens.
No?

A friend called me out for lunch out of the blue.
I'm full of skepticism.
Dont know what to expect.
I hope things dont get awkward.
Strange but I'm wishing that things will get resolved.
We'll see.

Tomm will be a WILD night with my safari quartet!
MAMBO time!