On my way to work this morning..
I received an sms from..gasp!
Alfred.
He's one of my ex collegue from expo.
Just a simple msg asking me how i've been.
Short and sweet.
He nv fails to msg and ask abt me once in a while admidst his busy schedule.
Really nice huh.
I'm pretty touched by this small gesture and at the same time,
I'm happy that he cares.
That made my day =)

He was one of my happy memories in singex.
I miss hearing 'good morning pam','hi pam' from him.
Also miss the times when i could happily walk into his cubicle and
Throw my tantrum and grumble and whine incessantly
With him just there to listen, comfort me or make me laugh.
I like how he was always protective against me whenever someone tried to 'take advantage' of the situation.
And also how he'll text me an encouragement msg after a rough day at work.
I know this is totally irrelevant..but he was acsian all the way!
Ha! I like.

The girls thought he liked me then.
But i think its more of a brother doting on a younger sis kinda feeling.
He made me felt very appreciated though i was a mere temp receptionist.
Being the international sales manager, i gotta say he has very high EQ for someone of his status.

I expected things to be fun in this norwegian company that i work in currently.
Like with so many ang mohs and all.
But it didnt turn out anything like what i had expected.
I guess its the nature of the job.
Think offshore oil rig drilling.boring stuff.
And also the ppl here.
Theres too much of an age gap.
Theres only a few whom i could connect with.
One of them being the HR manager.

She's Miss Gan.
Petite lady with distinct oriental features black silkyhair and an impeccable dress sense.
She shared with me alot of her experiences growing up as a young adult.
Her work experiences and how she climbed up the corporate ladder.
Her interesting love life with pilot engineers and office romances with collegues and bosses.
Also how she juggled work and family.
All these and she's only 30.
Inspiring.

Coincidentally my prev HR manager was also very chummy with me.
And i've learnt and acquired quite a fair bit whilst talking with these 2 managers.
They're not the least hesitant about sharing all those information with me.
I guess thats one of the traits of a HR personnel.
It helps alot considering that i'm gonna be taking HR management as one of my electives.
After seeing it for myself and receiving all the 1st hand information,
I wouldnt rule out venturing into the field of HR in my careeer later.
Worth giving it a go!

Happy birthday SHAINA dearest!

To the one who has always had a special place in my mind.
The endless reminiscences we share nv fail to bring a smile on my face!
Thanks for all the precious memories and for being just YOU!
Heres to friendship!
May u have a smashing 21st my bestest SOAT!!
I lovelovelove you!!

I don't like to blog..
But once i start i cant stop.
Cos i simply have too many random train of thoughts.
And i just have to jot them all down.
So here goes.

Was friendster voyuering.
Seen pictures of lotsa friends going on holidays together.
Makes me wanna go on a trip with all my mates too!
Have been talking abt the longest time to go Spain with lynn to see our ang mohs.
Australia to see hanis with the vases.
Taiwan with copar gisbus.
Hong Kong and neighbouring countries with my cousins.
I'm gonna save all the $$ to materialise the above!

Also i suddenly feel like i want to be in a relationship.
May be a HIM or possibly a HER.
I saw jane's profile and seeing her picture, it got me thinking of the old times.
I missed her.
Alot of you will probably scream "eww" if you read this.Ha.
But those were memories were plain sweet.
There isnt really a guy whom i can think of in the same manner.
Sad huh.Wahaa.

Some men can get so irritating.
Like I cant stand the sight of some certain men in my company.
Esp that particular one who mentally harrasses me.
Such a put off.
I'm totally grossed out.
For a note, i really dont like guys who sweet talk excessively.
Esp with those cheesy tag lines.
Initally it may sound gd..but too much of it kills.
Guys, try harder pls.
Tell me i'm not too hard to impress.

This is all for now! will be back on more random topics!

I spent the entire day friendster voyeuring in the office today.
Such is the job of the receptionist.
Free & easy.
Looked thru soo many profiles of friends and friends.
Hmm...its intriguing.
How just everyone is connected to everyone else.
And there are so many pretty beings around.
For a while i think i look sooo pale in comparison.

Got me into alot of random thoughts.
I suddenly feel a great sense of void.
Like i'm kinda regretting not making it to any of the 3 unis.
Thus no colorful campus life to speak of.
That being the prime time of life as a student.
Things would have been so much different.
Those are the sorta uni life i've always dreamt of.
Then i think again.
Not everyone in there is having soo much fun either huh?
The ones i see are probably the minority?
Right i'll take that as a consolation.

Sure i can have my share of the so called campus activites in sim too.
That is if i've joined any of their already very pathetic few clubs or asscoiations.
Like i could have been in the SRC.
Had i not screw up my interview.
Just whats wrong with me?
Acting all non chalant with that yaya attitude and whatnot!
I should just slap myself in the face.

Read my earlier entries and you'll see how much i loved and enjoyed school THEN.
All things peachy.
But good times like those dont last.
I soon become jaded.
Losing interest in all things...
And i kinda think it was 'THAT single moment of a foolish act' that has attributed to me feeling this way.
I'm not going back there.

Just wanna start all things afresh when new term begins.
Pei yee and i have agreed to be super friendly and lovely babes!
We shall!
Thats the year 2 resolution.
For a start i should prob start looking up some interesting clubs which i can consider taking part in.
Otherwise I'll start one of my own.
Think pilates yoga and kickboxing!

I thought of doing volunteer work too.
Saw the profile of one of my cchs senior Jacinta.
I remember her to be an incredibly sweet girl and apparently she still is.
It says she's in my sch too..active in lotsa charity work and all.
All her pictures show her with different elderly at various charity events.
I found that very inspiring.
Many a times i wish i was doing more of such instead of partying and shopping the nights away.
I know i can head that way too.if i want to.
Its a choice not a chance.

never let the fear of striking out keep you from palying the game says:
so hows it

never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game says:
how do u feel being in a rs?

never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game says:
ha

bored . says:
well it feels quite good la actually

bored . says:
yu know give and take all that

bored . says:
but its good to have someone

bored . says:
bound to be certain sacrifices here and there

bored . says:
but ultimately its good la

never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game says:
oh my gosh i cant imagine ure saying this

never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game says:
oh well its funny how u end up with gg eventually..

bored . says:
why le

never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game says:
its just funny lah

never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game says:
after like so long

never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game says:
after all your nonsense abt how ure so unsure abt her and all

never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game says:
after the GUMS and pillows and whatnots

never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game says:
agree not?

bored . says:
ya i know

bored . says:
its like i never thot id get together with someone like that

bored . says:
but well i fell for her

bored . says:
haha

never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game says:
seriously?

never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game says:
haa..

never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game says:
thats nice


I wish them all the best then.

On another note..
J.phipps.yes that guy.i spoke to him ystd.
Dont know what came over me.sudden impulsiveness.
So he's really getting married.
Well congrats to him.
YA LAH (8 octaves higher)
Everyone's getting hitched!

Friday:
Cafe Iguana with ying ru shai weihao.
Session of porn FM and photo whoring with the girlies over tortilla chips and jugs of margarita!
Ang mohs aplenty. Definitely an eye feast.
I'm so gonna hang out there more often!
You're all welcome to join me =)
Victor came by later with his exoctic friends.
Sporean with the accent from god knows where, indo guy who grew up in africa and the espanol chap with the receding hairline (quotes ying)

Saturday:
Finally...the fireworks at marina bay!
It felt like many many shooting stars in brilliant colors were splattered in the vast night line and gushing towards you.
So spectacular so surreal.
I truly understand the psyche of people who will go all the way there and jostle amongst the hot sweaty crowd.
Just so for that 15mins of splendour.

Thereafter city spacing with shus and the lovebirds.
Eric is almost the perfect boyfriend we read in sweet valley high.
Shaina you lucky girl!
He has certainly set a high benchmark for my boyfriend.
Shus leaving next week..
Gonna miss this sweetheart for a year!
Hopefully we can fly over to sweden and visit!

Sunday:
Respect gathering.
Yaoliang was the only rose present.
I thought he became cuter.
And i pretty much 'terrorised' him.Ha.
The dinner was like the good ol chung cheng days where us girls engage in our favourite respectian games =)
I miss this buncha fun mates!

All in all..a fulfilling and gratifying weekend =)

Mr Latin Dancer invited me to his party tonight.
But somehow i think he asked me there just so i can accompany Mr MMM.
How insincere huh.
Contemplating if i should go.
Cos it feels damn weird.
After our saga some long long time ago.
And also cos its at friggin bukit timah and i dont feel like MOS-ing thereafter.

Shaina thinks i should go.
That he may probably be an interesting candidate.
Ha.Thats quite funny.
But he's as old as my younger bro miss!

I wanna see the fireworks tonight.
I shall consider cityspacing.
Alternatively, i could get a perfect view at my handsome ang moh boss's room at The Oriental!
Yea dream on, Pam.

I seriously think i will have a problem sustaining this blog again.
It always happens.
I'll still try my best to keep it up anyhow.

So let's see.
Goi's party was a cosy affair at the aranda country club.
The 27s were there.
Gd to see everyone again after so long.
Pity i didnt stay for long.
Goi's boyfriend seemed really sweet.
Helped to oversee the party, was the gamemaster and photog for the night.
Few boyfriends are like that these days.
Oh and one of the highlights of the party was the really yummy choco banana cake!
Ha..i'm such a glutton.

Down to sheila's pre-party.
Finally met the oh-so-talked-about winsy.
And Peipei! very fun guys!!
We were going gaga over the both of them the whole time.
2 silly girls high on alcohol!
SO yes..it was mambo jumbo madness - kisses planted everywhere.

Sheila had a cute pixie pink mushroom house for her cake.
For a while the guests thought it was her baby shower's party.
The vases were kept entertained and making merry amongst ourselves for the night.
And i had gd fun posing to be a couple with weidong!
It was totally against his wish thou.

I've decided that i want a party for myself too!!
Minus the getting everything together part that is.
I am all for a surprise party too!!

I saw this familiar silouhette on my way home one evening last week.
It was imp! AND he was holding on to a someone's hand.
I wasnt so sure if its him.
But i walked away as quickly as i could though.
Just didnt want to be seen.
Cant explain why i reacted that way.queer.

Anyhow i cleared my doubts.
And i've got the ans i not quite wanna hear.
So he's with gum girl.
Oh well.
I feel a tinge of sadness.a pang of jealousy.
So he's my spare tyre no more.
No more rantings whinings naggings screamings at him.
Everyone's saying I've got it coming.
I blew up all chances.
If ever there was any.
Really?
Seriously i'm not even sure if i feel for him in THAT manner at all.
I'm just a confused and indecisive girl.
Period.